February's challenge: stillness

I've been feeling out of sorts for the past week or so. I came back from a fabulous vacation, full of insights on the changes i need to make and when to make them, only to go back to the grind immediately the next day. Over the past week, though, i've realized the way i've been feeling is a result of only one thing: fear.

A couple of years ago a friend spelled out fear in this way:

False
Expectations
Appearing
Real

Wow! That really hit home with me. I've learned that living in the present moment relinquishes most of that fear. Fear of what is to come (the unexpected), as well as what has already happened. Neither of these are the present moment. I find myself coming to a stalling point every now and then, and it's apparent now that i'm doing this purely out of fear. There IS enough time in the day/week/month to juggle everything i'm doing as long as i'm in the present moment. Worrying about how much I have to do next week/next month will not do me one ounce of good NOW. But yet it's so easy to get distracted, especially at the beginning of a new year. A clean slate. A year of momentum and change. But how in the world can one be stalled at the beginning? Expectations. The only way I know to remedy this is through living in the present moment.

How do we get there? This is where my word for 2010 and my February challenge come into play! Kaizen is my word for 2010. Kaizen means "small steps". It took me a couple of weeks to actually understand what that means. I'm always striving for the "end goal" and one is surely to be disappointed many times while making the journey on that path. By using Kaizen, we are focusing on each step in the direction of that goal. The only way to accomplish that is to be in the present moment: mindfulness, awareness, compassion.

So the practice of mindfulness is different for every person. I find the best tools for me are meditation and yin yoga. Personally, I've always wanted to have a regular meditation practice. Unfortunately, I haven't been able to make it a habit as of yet.
So here's my challenge for February: stillness practice every morning for at least 10 minutes. I will commit to at least 10 minutes every morning. The stillness practice for me will be either seated meditation or yin yoga. Yin yoga is to be practiced in stillness, so I've allowed that option for myself. Both practices are beneficial for me and on any given day, one will be more beneficial than the other.
Don't get me wrong: for me, committing to 10 minutes of stillness every morning will NOT be easy! But now i realize just how badly i need it, so i'm willing to commit to this challenge for the month of February.

Does anyone have any favorite or successful challenges? Has anyone found it hard to gain that momentum at the beginning of the year? I'd love to hear!

Be Well!
Hilary

2010 GOALS

I'd like to post my 2010 goals. However, considering my word for 2010 is Kaizen, maybe goals isn't the appropriate word. Just know that the term goals is used loosely. My list does not include any lofty goals, but rather, fun steps along the way. Maybe I should incorporate a "decade's goals" list and have that be my dream goals. hmmm....something to think about! well, here goes:

1. travel more
2. commit to 3-4 yoga classes per week & continue to practice at home
3. art dates/art nights: at least 1 per month. I've realized that I NEED creativity in my life and this is the easiest & most fun way to schedule it.
4. re-introduce morning pages. my journaling is somewhat sporadic, so bringing back morning pages (from the artist's way) so it becomes a habit again.
5. blog regularly. starting out once/week, then twice a week, and by the end of the year, daily from monday-friday.
6. give more health counseling workshops
7. take private yoga sessions. there are a few areas i've been working on in my own yoga practice and since i've never taken a private, this would be a great way to customize and deepen my practice!
8. learn pilates
9. add meditation and pranayama workshops to my "seasonal to-do's" list
10. explore medical writing. I've just joined the american medical writers association, so i plan to complete some certifications this year, then hopefully do some freelance medical writing.
11. personal/group training certification. i'm toying with the idea of taking a break from my pharmacy life and having a more freelance kind of life. Since health, fitness, and spirituality are my passions, this would be a perfect certification to have.
12. game nights- i miss playing games! it was one of my favorite things to do as a child/young adult and i hope to incorporate that in my life this year.


This list will be my template & I plan to return to this list throughout the year to update/adjust as needed. I'll have to admit that this was a scary blog post for me because I normally keep my goals to myself. However, I think this is a great way to make these goals accountable.

Be well!
Hilary

word for 2010

Happy New Year and greetings from Mexico!

I am in the midst of a fabulous retreat at Hacienda Mosaico Puerto Vallarta, Mexico. The retreat is entitled: How to be a Gorgeous Genius: the Creative Entrepreneur Retreat. The retreat is being held by Lisa Sonora Beam, author of the Creative Entrepreneur. So far, this retreat GREATLY exceeds my expectations. I can't think of a better way to kick off the new year...rather, new DECADE! So far, I've met some completely fascinating people! It's great when a group of strangers can feed off one another's energy. What a great backdrop for the creative process! Once I return to the US, I will post photos and my overview of this wonderful retreat.

Which leads me to my word for 2010: KAIZEN. Many thanks to Kelly (from the retreat) for her great suggestion! The simplest definition of this word is "small steps". It really resonated with me because I tend to be an extremist in some ways. For instance, if I'm goal setting, I tend to choose either a lofty goal or the final endpoint rather than mini-goals which would act more like stepping stones for the final outcome. The end result is that I would become intimidated or disappointed so much that either I wouldn't continue or I would completely change my outcome or goal.

I'm planning on an amazing year with lots of breakthroughs and shifts, so my word for 2010 will hopefully facilitate me during my journey this year!

Here's to a fun, productive and successful 2010!!